( Ish could say no. Ish could, at any point, refuse him - and still ask that Hwyl be with him. And, at every point, Hwyl would feel stung, but he would stay. He's never quite sure where the line is going to be, anymore - would there be a place where he says, all right, that's enough, no further than this?
But there hadn't been, yet. And he's come to wonder if there wouldn't be. If - and is this hopeful to assume? - Ish's love for him has no bottom, has no condition, like Hwylryn's love for him.
It's almost a little scary. He's never had that before. But now that he knows it, he's even more scared to let go. Who else would indulge him in excess, kiss his tears away, promise him everything they're able to offer? Who has there been but Ish?
... )
... Can I ask you about something that's hurt you?
( He doesn't say it outright, but what Ish alluded to at the trial - about what came after he'd been burned at the stake... it's been weighing on his mind. Ish might be able to guess.
Ish can still say no. He can still offer something else Hwylryn doesn't know instead. Maybe something that wouldn't hurt either of them, right now. )
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But there hadn't been, yet. And he's come to wonder if there wouldn't be. If - and is this hopeful to assume? - Ish's love for him has no bottom, has no condition, like Hwylryn's love for him.
It's almost a little scary. He's never had that before. But now that he knows it, he's even more scared to let go. Who else would indulge him in excess, kiss his tears away, promise him everything they're able to offer? Who has there been but Ish?
... )
... Can I ask you about something that's hurt you?
( He doesn't say it outright, but what Ish alluded to at the trial - about what came after he'd been burned at the stake... it's been weighing on his mind. Ish might be able to guess.
Ish can still say no. He can still offer something else Hwylryn doesn't know instead. Maybe something that wouldn't hurt either of them, right now. )