( Ish is safe, and if there is nothing else he can trust, if there is no other proof in existence arguing against his isolation, there is this - there is Ish.
...
He's quiet, for a time; the tears roll, swallowed up by Ish's cloak. )
... Can you stay with me?
( Sweet, but— )
... I need to do something that's going to hurt a lot.
( He'd ask Ish to do it with him, if he could - it would still hurt, but not as severely to know it as a couple's project, in some perverse way. But he thinks Ish's directive against assisting would extend to this, too, so he won't bother ask.
At the end of the day, this is something he's doing for himself, even if it's something he does to be with Junior and Ish - himself, so he can argue with himself, that he should live. It's only right that he reap the rest of his suffering himself. )
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...
He's quiet, for a time; the tears roll, swallowed up by Ish's cloak. )
... Can you stay with me?
( Sweet, but— )
... I need to do something that's going to hurt a lot.
( He'd ask Ish to do it with him, if he could - it would still hurt, but not as severely to know it as a couple's project, in some perverse way. But he thinks Ish's directive against assisting would extend to this, too, so he won't bother ask.
At the end of the day, this is something he's doing for himself, even if it's something he does to be with Junior and Ish - himself, so he can argue with himself, that he should live. It's only right that he reap the rest of his suffering himself. )