Got it all figured out, huh. My beloved is a clever one.
( Genuine compliment, despite everything a little weird about him. But he's always genuine, even when he's weird and raw like this. )
I'm in a pretty tough spot, but I'll do my best. If I survived Gwawlyn with some pretty words, I'm sure I can manage this. And then, after...
( ... And then...
... )
... But even if I do, they'll hate me.
( His arms finally begin to loose, his eyes wetting. He had made himself so focused on the after, with Ish and Junior, has so focused on Junior's beautiful admission of love, so he wouldn't feel like this, but these handful of things have - reminded him, have been reminding him, for a little while. )
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Got it all figured out, huh. My beloved is a clever one.
( Genuine compliment, despite everything a little weird about him. But he's always genuine, even when he's weird and raw like this. )
I'm in a pretty tough spot, but I'll do my best. If I survived Gwawlyn with some pretty words, I'm sure I can manage this. And then, after...
( ... And then...
... )
... But even if I do, they'll hate me.
( His arms finally begin to loose, his eyes wetting. He had made himself so focused on the after, with Ish and Junior, has so focused on Junior's beautiful admission of love, so he wouldn't feel like this, but these handful of things have - reminded him, have been reminding him, for a little while. )
... Ah... Ish... I've killed my friends.
( :( )